obsession confession~

I admit..
I'm obsessed..
I really hoped to see you online, whenever I am..
I stalk your profile, just to see what have you been up to..
In my every post, I'll think of you..
I think of you, when I'm lonely..
I look at your picture if I have trouble sleeping..
I look at your picture to calm myself..
I fantasize, thinking of different ways to see you again..
It aches my heart, thinking bout you..
I feel dissapointed  when you're not online..
I feel heartbroken, if I see you were online a while ago, while I was not..
I ache for a connection between us..

I wish for us to be like before..

But, whenever I post things about how I feel, people tend to think, its about airl..
That normal, I guess, but not me..
I feel like telling all of them, its not a girl, its my juniors!
But then, what would people think??
They won't understand, they would only judge me...
So, I chose to say nothing about it..
Tell nobody who it's about..
Except for those who already knows...
With hope in my heart, that one day, you'll notice..

But, what hurts me the most is,
When people keep on telling me,
Don't worry, if God wills,
You'll be with the person in the future..
As if...
If only they knew..
How god would surely forbid it..
But who knows what God wants?