Theorem~

It has been sumthing that i talk about alot with my friend, Fawwaz,
How when you choose to discard sumthing, or someone frm your life,
It comes back at you, full force....
And we were talking about it based on our own experiences,
Not just theories....

There we0as once, after Mahgrib prayers, at my hostel,
We chatted about our relationships with our juniors,
How very one-sided we felt it was....
And I was like,

Thats it, starting now,
Im gonna end it,
Since its only one sided and all,
And im not gonna pay attention to them,
Im not gonna take note of what they were doing, and so on..

Because that past couple of days,
They weren't paying much attention,
Or they were sorta uninterested,
Whenever I tried talking to them,
Or anything...
And it was an on and off thing,
Sometimes they're ok,
Sometimes they ignore me,
(Usually the latter...)

So, I chose to end it...
And truly, it felt like a one sided thing...

But that night, after Isyak prayers,
We were free of any activities
(since it was a saturday..)
And while Fawwaz and I was just hanging around,
He (Az) came towards me,
Starting to chat,
Playing with my locker keys which had a long rope as a keychain,
Tying it up at his waist (it was cute~)

And I was like,

Why? When I chose to discard you, you come back??

And we ended chatting the whole night at his dorm about random things,
He even played with my hair...
(Dont take it the wrong way, and to me, it was a significant act)
It was a sweet memory...

But that was then...

And if you read my previous, new years post,
I said that Im finally abled to control my obsession over them,
(Which is sort of me trying to cast them away..)
Feeling that they have already forgotten me,
With the new school year and everything,

But look at what I found on FB...
(Look at pic below...)
He commented that,
On a pic of me at my old school,
Days ago.....

The picture had nothing to do with him,
And since it was posted as well as a week before he commented,
I wondered how he could have found it....

It actually made my day,
Knowing he still remembers me,
And he (somewhat) misses me....

And actually,
A couple of days before that,
I texted with Fawwaz,
(Who was at PLKN...)
And we agreed that they would have forgotten us....

So yeah....

It made my day, that day....

So now I have to search for some strength,
To live on,
With them popping in and out of my life,
At unexpected times.....