What I Wish For~

As I lay on my bed,
Awaiting for sleep to overcome me,
I cant help,
But to be bombarded by memories,
Which  has happened very frequently......

And what I should have done then....

And how I wish I could turn back time,
To relive it in a better way,
To try and make the memories,
A better one...

But then,
I thought,
What would happen to certain things,
If a certain part of my past was changed,
And how hard it is to change some part,
Since the actions that helped towards it,
Came much later...
Like how wierd if I was to hang out in Az's dorm with Az,
When in there was Emil and Mt Drug,
Who I became close to in the middle of the year,
And only then I started to hang in Serphen 6....
(I was actually scared to enter S6 due to Emil at first.... hahaha)

If only I could go back in time,
How I would prevent some things to happen,
Such as the fight(?) between me and the others with Manjong,
Or the separation between Fawwaz and Battery,
Due to the interference of Iron....

But it all comes back to,
What will happen after that,
Would we be happier, or worst?

Atleast now,
Fawwaz and I (and Manjong) can joke about it a little...
(Then suffer from immense heartache afterwords....)
But if it was different,
How would it be?

I guess we will never know.....

《My late night pondering at 4.30am...》